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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 09:16

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I said to her

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My family never makes their pension either.

Teens like me, what are your expectations when entering adulthood?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And i lived it daily.

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Why would Joseph Smith say that polygamy was God's law?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She married twice! .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Have you ever had sex with your mother-in-law? If so, how was it and did your wife ever find out?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She found it foreign!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

If there is an abandoned house with no owner, can I live in it?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He resisted the act ,that day.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Ive learnt so much.

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She wouldn,t have been !

We all went to grammer schools

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was 9 years of age.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I think the readers, may guess!

I waited trembling.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Would this be the day?

She was in good health!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So, i spoilt her more .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As i do to all so called friends.?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were not on the streets..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

When she asked me how she looked .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Who then, do I blame.?

I was scared of men, in general

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I will be 64.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

This is soul school!.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Put me off passion for life!!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It was going to be , some day.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But, we were locked up after school.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Especially a lifetime of it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But it wasn’t much.

I have no regrets .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Comes on , in middle age.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I was seconnd youngest,

What did i know ?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I write beautiful poetry .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I could never make a relationship work though!

He knew the spot.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

One cannot live in the past .

My life is so biszare .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

All the time i was locked up.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She loved him until the end.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I don,t even have a pension.

Im still living with it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So whats the point in blame.

I was very sick at this time too.